So perhaps I'll get skinny, start running, eat melba toast, watch the stars a little less, read a little more. Connect, because sometimes I wake up and I am not there.

. I am vague and vacant. I forget things because there is no point in remembering them. That's my excuse.

The night will linger in your mind. I guess you always were a night owl. you and your scowl.

I feel old and useless.

Job applications, staying in bed, tea,lack of sun exposure, evenings outdoors, hope, lack of hope,sleepless nights, five cents on the floor, $2.50 coffee, hidden cigarettes, wilting flowers and all things melancholy.

There are little bits of sunlight on your face that catch my attention. you are sunlight.

Penniless by day, sleepless at night.