The fig trees are turning yellow. I had weetbix and tea for breakfast. I wasn't hungry but I ate.

"I will come back here, bring me back when I'm old
I want to lay here forever in the cold.
I might be cold but I'm just skin and bones
And I never love England
More than when covered in snow"

You buy yourself a furr coat, because you're sad and want to be glamorous. You run through the autumn leaves and learn how to break pretty boys hearts because they are far more pretty than you. You never quite get to be fully human because you become cold with little darling lies that never end, unlike the cigarette you just finished. Maybe that sun is false, maybe it's that cold autumn sun. Do not fret dear, because you have glasses to hide behind and a life that could be anything.

maybe one day you will wake from your sadness and find that I am dead.

I had some Earl Grey tea for breakfast this morning. I hope smokes and gifts is open, but sunday is always tainted by rest.

I have been wearing your jumper, since you forgot me.

Sometimes I forget how nice it is to see people. Sometimes I forget about the possibility of speaking.

Today I had cereal and a cup of tea for breakfast.