Today was so cold, like easter weather and I wore a coat to work. I had a pot of tea for lunch to warm up and I almost finished reading "What's eating Gilbert Grape". Everything happened quickly and now I am even. There is a thought I have, which I can't define, but it makes me ill, if only I knew. I think that is all. The funny thing is, I always thought I had something but I didn't. We only have our thoughts.