My days disapear rapidly and I am left with an uncertainty and an empty stomach.

Sinewy arms of the world, took out my insides and left me hollow.

SCRABBLE.

First day off from work in what seems like ages. I had porridge for breakfast and a cup of tea. The sky is grey and cloudy. I just ate an orange and am drinking peppermint tea. Today I need to pick up my reservations from the library, call the doctor, meet Aimee and Rhiannon at creme and then meet lisa as we are making eggplant chips at my house and watching movies. I am listening to Cat Power and hoping it rains, because the clouds are heavy on my mind.

Slowly I am becoming a familiar face. One day they'll start calling me by my name, getting my coffee ready five minutes early, telling me about how they love the sky in the evening. Mostly, one day I wont look as though I am alone, even if I am.

Today was so cold, like easter weather and I wore a coat to work. I had a pot of tea for lunch to warm up and I almost finished reading "What's eating Gilbert Grape". Everything happened quickly and now I am even. There is a thought I have, which I can't define, but it makes me ill, if only I knew. I think that is all. The funny thing is, I always thought I had something but I didn't. We only have our thoughts.

I am faceless, see through, empty.
you are so full, full of everything I want.